- 06.12.2017,
- News & Insights, Interviews
Dr. med. Markus Holdt
Mr. Holdt, you are leaving with a smile on your face and a tear in your eye – why?
On the one hand, I’m really looking forward to the new challenge: working in a healthcare system that is supposedly as good for doctors as Switzerland’s and at the same time balancing it with family life – I’m looking forward to that.
I’m also looking forward to slipping into the role of a foreigner, getting to know a different mentality better and redefining myself.
On the other hand, the work in Essen has enriched me enormously.
I have also come to appreciate a great many people in Essen in all areas over the last few years.
Both privately and among colleagues and patients and their families.
It won’t be an easy farewell all round.
The last ten and a half years in Essen have been a very valuable time.
What was special about your work here in Essen?
What is the particular challenge for a doctor – for you – with retinoblastoma?
Do you remember your first little RB patient?
Even before my actual time as a ward doctor, I worked as a substitute on the A1 pediatric ward for a few weeks back in 2005.
At that time, a boy from a university town in northern Germany came to Essen for his first presentation.
During the first interview, I could hardly believe the father’s explanations.
The story sounded so absurd: an ophthalmologist’s practice had recommended a masking treatment for a small boy.
Only months later did it turn out that there was already an advanced retinoblastoma in both eyes.
Unfortunately, the first contact with this retinoblastoma child immediately revealed the ambivalence of this disease, which is difficult to comprehend, between the enormous consequences of cancer and the often inadequate initial medical measures.
To this day, the recurring examinations of this boy have had a special significance for me personally.
Has this work changed you, as a doctor, as a person?
This work has certainly changed me.
It is not easy for me to distinguish this from other factors.
Perhaps I can say that the work has allowed me to mature as a responsible doctor and as a person in that I have had to look beyond the scope of an ophthalmologist and always consider the overall health aspects first.
In my view, this applies more to retinoblastoma care than to any other clinical picture in ophthalmology.
Are there people you have met during this time who have particularly impressed you?
There have been so many impressive moments in recent years.
The most poignant are the families or even affected children who have been able to deal with their burden as if it were a worthwhile task and develop exemplary coping strategies.
Whether it was about blindness, eye removal, secondary tumors or simply the diagnosis of retinoblastoma – whether as a family or as a single adult – it is wonderful to observe how people grow and deal with their challenges.
I continue to be impressed by a family whose child sadly passed away and still sends mail to the A1 children’s ward on certain occasions such as Christmas.
As a father of two, these stories are extremely moving for me.
At the beginning of my work, it was absolutely incomprehensible to me how parents affected by retinoblastoma pursue the desire to have children and take on the responsibility of enduring the often arduous treatment period for offspring with a familial mutation, also with regard to the discussions that arise with puberty.
Here, too, I have been able to experience a learning process for myself that clearly shows me with these children: every moment in which the child feels happiness and love, even if unconsciously, makes any doubting thoughts about whether it was the right family decision absurd.
How did the families react to your departure?
What do you say?
You are going to Switzerland.
Why?
What will be the particular challenge now?
For me personally, this move means first of all presenting my role as a quality ophthalmologist in private practice.
In addition, I am a foreigner in a country that only recently showed with the referendum how critically foreigners, especially Germans, are viewed in Switzerland.
Over the next few months, I will have to find out whether this decision was the right one, especially when it comes to bringing my family here in the near future.
We feel very much at home in Essen and don’t need to move away.
Nevertheless, my wife and I are tempted by the challenge of redefining ourselves as a family, especially in a new place of residence.
Do you remain connected to the topic in any way?
In the last few weeks before I left, I told all the parents how happy I would be if we could meet again at the retinoblastoma meeting in my home town of Düsseldorf in June.
I would like to remain associated with the Children’s Eye Cancer Foundation as a member of the Board of Trustees and a kind of ‘KAKS ambassador’ in Switzerland.
This topic and the wonderful foundation with its many blossoming branches offer an increasingly vital field of activity.
I look forward to staying connected to the topic and the families in this way!
The interview was conducted by Monika König.